Moon Haiku

June 29, 2010 § 8 Comments

Out of my window
I see her shine down on me
Time to go to bed

Just call me her name…

June 28, 2010 § 11 Comments

It’s ok really
Come on in
Don’t be nervous
I’m not here to hear you explain
Take off your clothes
Come here lie next to me
Just call me her name
Oh she? She’s not coming
I saw your text that’s how I found the place
She seemed really nice when I called
So come
Get comfortable
Undress me like you would her
Then make love to me like you have before
Except pretend that I’m her
I’m curious to know what side of you she gets
This isn’t trick or some weird fight
Just call me her name
And make this a memorable night

Time Passes Slowly…

June 27, 2010 § 8 Comments

8 years have passed

Still my heart beats the same

For the man who caused me

The greatest love and the greatest pain





Be Still My Heart

He Can Not Know

The Reason To Which

You Brightly Glow

My Prince…

June 27, 2010 § Leave a comment

If I could…

I would every morning of every day whisper for you to rise so that I may selfishly engulf the caress of your lips, the touch of your hands, and warmth of your body as my first day’s senses.

If I could…

I would every night of every day snuggle up next to you, let the worry of the world slip away, and find my sleep between your breaths while being rocked to sleep on your chest.

If I could…

I would of every day in every week of every year that you choose to be with me, bombard you with sweet nothings, fill you up with kisses until your lips are chapped with love, acknowledge the woman you call me to blossom into, have tan lines of your fingers on my hand from never letting you go, and adorn you with my love simply because of the man who you are to me, who you’ve always been and still continue to be. ❤ SoE

Haiku for You

June 26, 2010 § 5 Comments

So Curtis Bell was curious to know if I am inspired to write anything besides love. Well Yes Curtis I Am. Here are TWO Haiku’s posted just for you ❤

Two Tiny Sneakers
Giggling From Underneath
My Grand Willow Tree

Goddess of the night
Full and White as you appear
My only witness

– SoE

Free Me God…

June 26, 2010 § 5 Comments

I wrote this for a Religion Ethics Class. It was inspired by religious groups for men who find heterosexual ways to combat homosexual feelings.

Free Me
Let me be free
Allow me to be me
Live my life as I see fit
Free me now before I quit

Free me
Accept me God and all my sins
Make it somehow so I can win
Release me from this tortured soul
Lead me to my ultimate goal

Free Me
With Nights of pain deep in my heart
Why I am forcing us apart
Love me for the mistakes I’ve made
In an instant this life I wish I could trade

Free Me
Escape E s c a p e so I can liVE
Tell me what I have to give
My battered mind no longer works
Back and forth these rules I jerk

FREE ME GOD
I love the same
Can’t play the game
Just no more pain

Love Me God
I’m coming to you
To hear from you
So you can tell me what I did wrong
In this mission to find your love

The Cycle Continues…

June 26, 2010 § 2 Comments

Pain. Anguish. Deceit. Lies. The never ending circle
When all you want to do is never what you get
Insecurities that build into fears
Fears that cause destruction and pain
Oh pain the pain that erupts from suppression
Suppressed anxieties. Suppressed questions of the uncertain
What is the deal anyway?
What does this all mean you live you love and you learn?
But the lessons we take are all from pain
And the pain that gets recycled
Perpetuates and doesn’t cease because it thrives on misery
I’m lost and I’ve never been in this place before
Questioning myself and his loyalty
His honesty and his words
How am I supposed to differentiate between
What he wants me to hear and what he is telling me
All I can hear are lectures from his pain body
My heart aches from unloyalty
Aches from tears rubbed into my palms
But how and why does it continue
How and why does it remain present
Go away misery leave me out of your grasp
And the tighter the hold the more I can’t find my breath
No reason to breathe just reason to never breathe
The pain that deepens and becomes you
The understanding of a lesson that is improperly instructed
How am I supposed to learn like this?
Is this pain self inflicted?
Where is my life going and how did I get to here?
Alone yet not too far
Crushed yet still together
Lost and blind saddened and betrayed
Blinded from the sadness of my heart
And refusing to clear it is my head
Hurt and wishing to remain hurt
The cycle continues
I’m hurt he’s hurt
What are we now…

Where Am I?

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