Restraining Beauty…

May 30, 2010 § 4 Comments

He held beauty in his hands carefully,

Holding it making sure not to crush it.

He caressed it with soothing touches.

Held it to the light and watched

The deflected rays if color light the room.

He stood in awe at his beauty,

Unaware of its full potential.

He called his beauty to blossom.

He handled this beauty with so much at times it hurt.

He mistook screams for sweet songs.

As his beauty grew he learned to loosen his grip.

Scared of loosing it he hid it from the world.

Growing in grey surroundings

His beauty began to look foreign. 

He gave her light, love in abundance,

And reassurance of his never faltering heart.

But when finally releasing his guarded grasp,

This beauty flew away… ❤ SoE


The Birth of my Euphoric Pleasure…

May 27, 2010 § 1 Comment

I don’t love you but what I do feel is unlike anything my heart has experienced. My heart grows and expands towards you. Like a flower to the sun my heart follows your rays of light. Your shine is silently brilliant and I bask in the warmth of your attention. Everyday you offer up your interest I grow that much more infatuated with the thoughts that swarm my busy fantasizing mind. Wound up in the complexity of an unsolved rubrics cube, my mind swizzles the colors of my mood. Blending and separating on a painter’s canvass my heart paints the pictures of emotions invoked by you. The perplexing man who I dare not to define and limit the greatness of the phenomenon he is. I only offer to name what he unknowingly bestows on my spirit…Euphoric Pleasure.

Treading in Murky Water…

May 23, 2010 § 1 Comment

When it comes to you my heart fights with my mind. Trying to make sense of what to do I loose myself in thoughts of you. Feelings of the past both of smiles and tears create further confusion. The second hand on my wrist keeps count of all the minutes my hand has been separated from yours. The time of forgotten tears and  loneliness. My heart still beats with your love. My cheek still cold, craving the warmth of your touch. Still unsure…Still treading in murky water. What is it in me that questions the time of now with you? Why am I so reluctant to find my way back to you? I imagine throwing myself at you, in your arms of forgiveness. I am so scared and I just don’t know why anymore… ❤ SoE


May 19, 2010 § 2 Comments

His words have me entranced – held within their power to make mean anything I don’t understand. I become his without demand or his asking.  My dreams are sequestered to his image – my lips chapped without his kisses giving life to them. Is it in his eyes or in my head that makes me fall for this Euphoric Pleasure? Unsure of what is to come I simply instruct myself to close my eyes and place one foot in front of the other. I follow his voice unconcerned of anything past right  now. His hands sing me a lullaby and in this dream-like state I come into my full potential… ❤ SoE


May 18, 2010 § 2 Comments

Tell me I should walk away. Tell me I’m silly for waking up and imagining that you’ll be there next to me. Tell me because once I open my eyes the sharp pain of reality will sink into my heart once more. I need you to tell me that this fall has ended, that you weren’t there to catch me, and the pain I feel is permanent. Give me whatever you want for letting go of your hand. Just tell me please I need you to tell me you’re not coming back, that my desires can no longer be fulfilled, and I’m foolish for hoping so. Tell me because I still have hope because I haven’t given up yet because even if things won’t be the same I still wish on the first star in that deep blue sky for your return. I’m walking away slowly and backwards staring at you walk away just in case you turn around. And if my heart’s wish be granted then I would waste no time and immediately go running back in your arms. I still need you. My heart still needs you… ❤ SoE

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